I have been out of order for the last 10 days. Sick as a dog. What started as a sore throat, morphed into some of the worst pain I have experienced. I couldn't eat, sleep, read, work, listen to music, drive or even play. I was down. The infection that was initially in my throat made it's way into my ear and on a flight home from Austin wrecked havoc on my inner ear canal. Ear pain, THE WORST! Finally, I have been granted some relief today after being loaded up on steroids yesterday.
Being down is for the birds. Not my favorite thing, I don't do forced relaxation well. I have too much to do to not be doing something. I run a home, a business,I'm part of a growing women's ministry, I have my blog, I have my Church body, I have many roles in the Church, I have bible studies to do and bills to pay. I have all the things. I cannot be down for 10 days. I mean who can? So, I aggressively prayed and frantically pleaded for God to take all this sickness away. To make me feel better. To relieve the painful pressure in my ear, I was seriously in mind numbing, mind loosing pain ya'll. He, however, did not choose that path for me. Instead he sent me love.
Love the poured out all over me these past 10 days. No, Jesus did not show up at my door step and give me a big holy hug (but can you imagine, I would be geeking out!) But instead he gave me a husband who poured himself out for me for 10 days.
Let me tell you, this is God's great work in my husband. My dear sweet man is not known for being caring and nurturing, he's a true man's man. A rub some dirt on it and get back out there kind of man. So if you are reading this and feeling envious and jealous I want you to read the following and apply. I have prayed that Adam and I would learn to love each other the way each other needs to be loved. That God would teach us how to serve each other well. After 5 years of marriage, we are still working on this. If you long for this in your life, you must be willing to pray about it and to change the way you are serving to reflect the needs of your spouse (or spouse in waiting).
God saw favor on me by equipping my husband to step up to the plate and knock it out of the park. To be the hands and feet of Jesus, to serve and love me well. Though I'm not sure I would EVER repeat this week again, the silver lining and blessing in it all is to have been cared for and loved well by the man God gave me for so many reasons that I could not begin to list them all. Sometimes we wonder why God pairs us with these men, we could not be more different right? But when the rubber meets the road, when the tough things happen, they balance us out and we get to move forward together.
If you are in a season a tough times in your marriage, can I encourage you to pray about your role in your spouses life. How can you love them well? How can you serve them best? It's probably not the way you want to to be served, but do it anyways. I promise it will reap great rewards, if even just within your own soul. Bring those things to the Lord, he will guide you if you let him. After all, he made you in his own image FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY and so BEAUTIFULLY designed to love and serve others.
PS- I am not the perfect spouse, I am self preaching here as well! Thank the Lord for grace and new days to try harder to live out my vows well!