Last year I made a decision. I got tired of being sick and tired, literally. I committed to change. I've dieted many many times in my life. I've starved myself, obsessed over working out and beat myself up over every cookie, every french fry. I've spent many years of my life on the body image roller coaster. Putting much of my value and worth in the numbers on the scale. So much of my life I valued what others saw as beautiful more than my heavenly Father. Change seemed impossible.
Last year it was different. I spent over a year feeling physically crappy, overweight, depressed and lacking in joy.As I began to review what in the world was going on I prayerfully met the idea of change. That's the thing about change, it's now seemingly impossible to me without Christ's backing. As humans our nature is set in such a way, because of free will, that change is very hard. Our selfish nature, pride and willfulness gets in the way of change. We want so badly to be more organized, have better will power, stay the course, beat the addiction, yet so many times when the rubber meets the road we find ourselves at the end of the year 10 lbs heavier and no better than how we ended last year. So, I get it. I get that we may all have the desire for the completion of a resolution and beat ourselves up at the end of yet another year where we failed again.
The difference in this change for me was that instead of journeying out into the big thing alone, I invited God to go with me. I sought his desire for this part of my life instead of my own. This changed my perspective. Instead of change being about what size pants I wore or getting a medal in the 1/2 marathon I wanted to run it became more about honoring God with my life and the way I lived it.
Enough about me. May I encourage you to invite God into these places of your life that you are wanting change in but can't figure out why every year it's the same. Here's some things you may be holding onto tightly:
Your single life
Problems at work
A health issue
Social media addiction
How do you invite him in to these places? Pray. Invite him to intercede in your life, to be the guide in your journey. So often we step out, ahead of him and expect him to work it all out. Oh sweet sister it doesn't work that way. God must be the leader in your dance, he is not in the business of following.
30 lbs lighter, free of daily depression, free of illness and joint pain I literally stand before you changed both physically and spiritually. I invited God into that change, and he was the author of this story.
Who will write the pages of your book this year?
Can I suggest on anthem for 2016: