Attend to me, and answer me; I am restless in my complaint and I moan, Psalm 55:2
And God has been all kinds of like this:
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
My discouragement has mainly been a lack of trust and God in
my life. I need to wait on him, not expect
him to meet me where I want him to be.
Life in Christ is not a vending machine.
I'm a whole lot of “I want I want, I need, I need, I gotta have” and God
is a whole lot of “Be patient my child, wait on my plan it’s so much better
than yours”. My discouragement came from
my lack in faith, trust and vision. I
cannot see what God has in store for Providence Baptist Church, Missions in my
life, The Language Project (my company) or the many other “grievances” that I
have brought to him in the last few weeks.
I have come to God as if he were a vending machine trying to put my
prayer in and immediately receive my desire.
“Lord, please save this person in my life because I want you to” “Lord
please don’t take my best friend and send her to the other side of the country,
because I can’t live without her” “Lord
light a fire in my church, because I’m tired of looking like the radical crazy
lady” “Lord, make my company profitable
so that I’m not stressed out about money anymore” There is SO much “I” in those prayers it’s
painful to read, but these have been my prayers. Here is my prayer now:
“Father, forgive me for my lack in patience and trust. Lord, lead my feet where you would have them
go. Give me the words you would have me
speak. Send me where you would have me
and may my refuge only ever be you.”
You see in that prayer there is no I. In that prayer and in that attitude God can
grow me and refine me. I am open to his leading and his will. God is not a vending machine spitting out
exactly what we order each time. He is an
overflowing fountain of grace, mercy and love providing us with what we need to
live a life that is pleasing and glorifying to him.
This week with a change in my attitude I was renewed and I
got to see his great work in my life and in the lives of others. Our church started a new ministry this week
and gave me a shot of electricity that was greatly needed. Though my friend is still moving, my business
still takes hard work and my life still has unmet desires I am reminded that
his plan is perfect and I am only to
seek him first to have all else added unto me.
What do you need to pray this week? Do you need to pray for
patience in his plan? Do you need to pray for peace regarding the loss of a
friend, loved one, or the end of a relationship? What changes do you need to make in your life
to create freedom in the plan that God has?
There is so much beauty to truly letting go of what you are holding
tightly in your hand, because when you do that your palms are open and ready to
receive. God loves you and desires for
you to know him. You are FEARFULLY
WONDERFULLY and BEAUTIFULLY MADE in his image.
Let’s all go and proclaim that in our lives each day.
Much Love,
Chrystan