And All Shall Be Added

What in the world have I been doing these last few weeks?  It's been a blur.  This being one of the busiest seasons of life I have ever had, I am looking back wondering what I would've done differently to prepare myself.  I am a wife, a mother of 3 boys and a business owner.  All three of those things require an amazing amount of time and energy to stay afloat.  The last few weeks it seems as if the most important things have been put on the back burner to keep the other things functioning at the high level that they require.  If I were watching myself on the outside of all this madness over the last few weeks there are some things I know that I wouldn't see.  Important things that have been lacking greatly in my daily life.  Why is it that I naturally sacrifice the most important things when in crisis mode.  It's as if when my boat is sinking my most natural reaction is to throw the life vest into the water.  Now that just doesn't make any sense.  The first and most important thing that has been cast so freely aside is my walk with the Lord.  I haven't cracked a Bible outside of church in weeks.  Of all the things to leave out of my routine this should not be the one that goes.  The Bible says in Matthew 6:31-34:

³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

But seek FIRST his kingdom. FIRST!  Not after you've done everything else. Not when you're at your wits end. FIRST seek him, then the rest will take care of itself.  So, I am back on track yet again. I will begin my days with the word. I will seek solace in his arms and I will put my relationship with the Lord back in the number one place where it belongs.

The next thing that has gone out the window is my husband (not literally). You see, the kids NEED me. I am the momma, I have to tend to their needs.  My husband is a grown man, he can fend for himself right?  However, in my crazy life I am frazzled. I am stressed and I am grumpy. Plus remember that I am not putting God first, which makes all this worse.  So, I am not a joy to be around. I am far from joyful and find myself easily blaming him for all that goes wrong in our life.  I am not showing him love and I am not allowing myself to feel worthy of his love.  He can do no right and all I feel is that I can only do wrong.  So, we had a talk. Mostly about our love languages and how we can show better love to each other.  We each took this survey to help us get better at loving and showing love to each other, I highly recommend it:
http://www.5lovelanguages.com/profile/
I am blessed to have a man in my life who not only loves me through my crazy but loves the Lord and seeks his plan for our lives.  He is also very forgiving and long suffering :)

What I want you to walk away from this random blog post is this.: What are your priorities? What goes out the window when you're stressed and running ragged?  Where are you placing your faith?  If you're like me this is a daily struggle of priorities, one that we have to be prepared and armed for.  Stay in prayer, stay in the word, SEEK FIRST the kingdom and God will take care of the rest.  Put him first and all else will be added.  Mind blowing realization- He is all we need. Once we have that he will provide, HE WILL PROVIDE for us something that we can not provide our selves.

Matthew 10:29
²⁹ Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.

His eye is on the sparrow and I know he watches me...

If you do not know the great creator who watches all even down to the last sparrow, please seek him out.  It is through him you will find peace, solace, love and most importantly eternal life.  He wants you to know him and calls you to him.

Remember in this crazy, fast paced world you are Beautifully and Wonderfully Made by a Lord you calls you by name.

Much Love,
Chrystan