Here's the deal friends. I worry. I worry alot. I worry about everything. Under this mostly calm exterior there is a little girl frantically concerned at every turn. I spend a decent portion of my day allowing my outlandish imagination to take over and come up with every imaginable and unimaginable senario to occur. Most of my worry centers around my children and my family. After I am through worrying about them I move on to things like friends, work, finances, public safety, the health of my kidneys, and sometimes I even worry about how much I worry (hence the blog about worry!). Yikes! No wonder I can't go to sleep, no wonder I have a hard time trusting those around me, i'm too busy worried about everything to put trust in the mix. So, after lots of soul searching and talking to some wise people, I have not come up with a solution, but I have come up with a way to combat this worry. The BIBLE! Wow I know, shocker that the BIBLE would have answers to all my problems, but it does! I am learning to cling tightly and dearly to my Bible. Let me give you an example. Cohen left for his dad's house for an entire month this weekend. That was very hard for me. He drove up north with his uncle, whom I am sure is a great guy, but I worried that they would get into a car accident. Then I moved on to what would/could happen while he was away, it's like if he's not with me then he's not safe at all. Hello??? How prideful can I be. It is not in my hands, clearly, because wouldn't it be so scary if it were!!!??? So Cohen left, and this morning was a hard morning at church without him there. As I felt the hot tears find my cheeks I began to search desperately for a verse to cling to. I found Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own" then I went to Philippians 4:6"
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God". I was struck this week by the thought that my worrying is sinful because it's prideful. I am so sure I know what's best, I am so sure I have a better plan and so afraid God is going to screw up my perfect life I worked so hard for, that I am missing the blessings of trusting him. I can not see all the good when I am focusing on what could be so bad. I do not want to worry my life away and I really don't want to pass my worry issue on to my children. The only way to prevent that is to commit to prayer and make a change within myself. I'm going to be prepared to combat this with prayer and scripture. I love the people in my life with such a God given passion it will be hard to worry about everything less, but I am missing out on blessings by not giving this over and instead letting it take over and I don't want to miss out on blessings from God!
My sweet friends, what is taking over your life. What weeds are chocking out the seeds you have planted? Is is worry? Is there something that you are holding on to because it's too painful to let go? Is it holding out on giving your life over to God? Well knock it off! :) Now is the time. Today is the day, to relinquish these things. Lay your burdens down at the cross and let's move on together.
If you would like to know more about laying your burdens down and following Jesus please message me. I would love to talk to you more about this topic and anything else. Until next time my friends, know that God made you on purpose and He loves you intentionally, fully and truly. You are Beautifully and Wonderfully Made by God for God.
Much Love,
Chrystan
